Mommy is sick….. I pray for your eye to recover 100%.

Excuse me for my long absence and my apologies for those following me.  It has been an eventful 2016 for me.   Lots had happened, with some incidents leaving permanent damage physically and some emotionally.  I managed to pull through 2016 with GOD’s saving grace, the love of my husband, sons and support of family members.  I was provided a chance to rethink my priorities, and questioned myself on what is important to me.

I can’t feel my face!

It started in the morning during late May 2016.  I went in to work feeling unwell. Within 5 minutes after I stepped into the office, my right eye was dropping to a close and I can’t control my eyelid to open it up. My right cheek started to feel strange too, there seems to be a numbing sensation that was enough to set me panicking.

The immediate thought I had was “Am I going to suffer a stroke?

I left work without any hesitation and admitted myself into A&E.  I was kept in the observation ward and was treated as a priority case. For the next 4 hours the doctor run loads of blood test, went for an X-ray and MRI to rule out stroked.  Fortunately, and probably unfortunately, they detected a virus infection from my blood test results that explained the symptoms.  They confirmed it was Bell Palsy.

What is Bell’s palsy?

Bell’s palsy is a paralysis or weakness of the muscles on one side of your face. Damage to the facial nerve that controls muscles on one side of the face causes that side of your face to droop . The nerve damage may also affect your sense of taste and how you make tears and saliva. This condition comes on suddenly, often overnight, and usually gets better on its own within a few weeks.
Bell’s palsy is not the result of a stroke or a transient ischemic attack (TIA). While stroke and TIA can cause facial paralysis, there is no link between Bell’s palsy and either of these conditions. But sudden weakness that occurs on one side of your face should be checked by a doctor right away to rule out these more serious causes.” 


It definitely was a great sign of relief for me.  I was familiar with Bell Palsy as my mom had this condition 7 years back.  I knew what needed to be done to get myself treated.  The race is  against time

Things never go the way you plan.

Things went on fine for a couple of days after treatment. Then I started having problem with my vision.  My right vision started to blur and I could hardly see at night. I was referred to an eye specialist immediately by my neurologist.  Test results showed that there is a water growth in the middle of my eye that causing the obstruction of my vision,  they termed it Central serous retinopathy (CSR).  Apparently, I do not take well to steroid and it was the side effect the medication to cure Bell Palsy.

A photographic scan below illustrate how the water can impact my visual and the gradual move of the water downwards.  The cross section photos showed the gap caused by the water affecting my vision.  The gap finally closed up after 3 months and we ruled out the need for laser surgery to rid the water.

L &  L – Love and Lessons

The journey to recovery from Bell Palsy was both weary in body and spirit for me.  What I have learnt from this experience was that ultimately, it was family that cared and worried about you the most.  My oldest rascal was extremely concerned when he saw my face paralysis.  He asked me almost every day when I will get better.  He was also unusually quiet when he went about his daily activities. He hushed his younger brother a lot, telling him that mommy needs to rest when he gets too playful.  I was very touched by his actions and more so when he told me quietly one day, “Mommy, I pray everyday to GOD for your eyes to recover 100%”.

This sentence alone has provided me the strength and will to get well.  I am grateful that my family will always be there for me.  My aged Dad that was helping me to care for my boys so that I can get sufficient rest.  I am grateful that Jesus is always watching over me.  The combination of both prayers and family love is good enough medication as any doctor’s prescription.

“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

Deuteronomy 31:8